Warm under the rain

I had dreaded that day I'll be spending with you and her
Because it makes me feel like a third one to an intimate party
But surprisingly, you looked into my eyes as you talk
And you always end up walking right next to me as we walk
She was quiet and bothered and we were given
A chance to laugh and share and be ourselves.
It made me feel that same warmth that you have.

To sit so closely to you is something alien to me
It pierces my skin as I run away to safer, colder places
Because it melts me to look into your eyes as we speak
As you lay your heart and bare your soul
Penetrate my wall and warm up my anxious heart
It's too much, it's too obvious. You leave me breathless
Dissolving my masks, and pricking my lies
You have such a potent power - to uncover who I really am
Exposing me naked, but not with a shiver
But a welcoming, glowing warmth

As I laugh and sit closely to you, I wished this would last
That it would not be those kinds of friendships that fade,
Wither, grow cold and disappear.
I wanted to bask under your own personal sunshine
And stay there
Dreading to go back into that cold, empty room
Where I am all alone, freezing

My Blankie

I saw you today.

I didn't realize how much I missed you until

I got to my bed and recounted what happened

I remembered your smile and that new scar under your eyes

I am reminded by how I pretend to listen just to stare at you

I watch as your lips break into a smile and then a laugh

I hold the umbrella for you, but you were way too tall that you have to take it from me

I sit across you talking about what we will do when we have children

I watch you get sweaty and energized in a game

I bump against you when we play hit

I touch your hands when I hand you my gun

I walk with you and just listen to your stories that never fail to amuse me

With all the weariness I've earned

From work, the weather, the lack of a family

There I find a refuge in your presence,

in your friendship

It feels like home where I leave all my burdens

and take life lightly like the time when I was still carefree

You are my treasure chest

I thank God that you are there to keep me warm

when things turn cold and I have nobody to lean on

You don't know what you're doing

but I'm glad you're doing it.

I fervently hope that you will stay
be there, be behind me
Stay as a reminder
that my heart needs your warmth.

Moving with you

Somehow I am relieved that my feelings toward you are not jealousy, envy or grief.
It feels like I'm moving with you.


A new life, a new home, a new job
Closer to where you are, but oh so very far


Paths different, away from each other,
but I know that we will always have each other


You are only my yesterday, not today,
the future still holds its secret


Not completely hoping, but completely optimistic
that we will both find happiness regardless if we are together


A new perspective, a new kind of love, a new sense of victory
It feels like I'm moving with you.

I love you again

A perfect combination

Dreamy smiles and body contact

A time when nobody could get any closer

Hopes were up and put-together

Where fairy tales were made without

much contradiction.