No matter how many times I failed
I always give love a chance.
And now I am asking yet again
Can this be it?
The way we talk about adventure
I can imagine backpacking with you
Holding your hand before beholding a beautiful sight
Holding your hand as we cross great rivers,
climb high mountains and perch ourselves on top or the world
I can imagine being with you in retracing steps
Reliving the past and reminiscing,
In writing the in-betweens of what I have taken for granted
For the sake of the awe in your eyes and the smile on your lips
I can imagine going on weekly adventures with you
Armed with just bikes, a new destination and each other
Of waking up next to you in another country
Introducing you to strangers as my partner
Taking you home with me
I imagine being with you in the quiet
Arms wrapped around me sharing the same breath
We never had to speak a word
But our eyes would dream in lands far away
And even after the thirst for seeking has been quenched
After the extended vacations and trips,
We will sit in the quiet knowing we have found home
And we have been taking it everywhere we go.
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
Better Than Before
I am no longer a girl. I am a woman.
And although I may look silly, clumsy and clueless. I know better.
I know better than going on a date with you. I know better than letting your head fall on my shoulder. I know better than going on random activities with you. I know better.
Sadly, I have made so many mistakes in the past that I already know where the rest of the story will be going. That means there will be no playing along and no fooling around on my part.
No I didn't learn this overnight, and I certainly didn't learn in the easy way. The pain was searing and reverberating into my soul. The hollowness and the echo of my past sins used to have a grip on me like a boulder chained around my neck. The heartaches were nights of swollen eyes from tears and bitten lips for regret. My hair was cut as a sign of the loss and it was not a light thing to bear.
No, I'm not a girl anymore. I don't make the same mistakes twice.
Fooling around may have been fun, but it was fun at the cost of my pain. I will never go back to being the weakling who crumbles and chokes at the thought of saying goodbye.
You have to be stronger than I. You have to be sharper in order to sharpen me. You have to be sturdier before I can lean on you. And you have to endure longer than the rest of them.
No I m not giving in. I will take you or leave you depending on your strength and will. And I will never back down or compromise.
Do not waste your time if you intend to fool around. You will only end up fooling yourself for falling for me.
And although I may look silly, clumsy and clueless. I know better.
I know better than going on a date with you. I know better than letting your head fall on my shoulder. I know better than going on random activities with you. I know better.
Sadly, I have made so many mistakes in the past that I already know where the rest of the story will be going. That means there will be no playing along and no fooling around on my part.
No I didn't learn this overnight, and I certainly didn't learn in the easy way. The pain was searing and reverberating into my soul. The hollowness and the echo of my past sins used to have a grip on me like a boulder chained around my neck. The heartaches were nights of swollen eyes from tears and bitten lips for regret. My hair was cut as a sign of the loss and it was not a light thing to bear.
No, I'm not a girl anymore. I don't make the same mistakes twice.
Fooling around may have been fun, but it was fun at the cost of my pain. I will never go back to being the weakling who crumbles and chokes at the thought of saying goodbye.
You have to be stronger than I. You have to be sharper in order to sharpen me. You have to be sturdier before I can lean on you. And you have to endure longer than the rest of them.
No I m not giving in. I will take you or leave you depending on your strength and will. And I will never back down or compromise.
Do not waste your time if you intend to fool around. You will only end up fooling yourself for falling for me.
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