I am no longer a girl. I am a woman.
And although I may look silly, clumsy and clueless. I know better.
I know better than going on a date with you. I know better than letting your head fall on my shoulder. I know better than going on random activities with you. I know better.
Sadly, I have made so many mistakes in the past that I already know where the rest of the story will be going. That means there will be no playing along and no fooling around on my part.
No I didn't learn this overnight, and I certainly didn't learn in the easy way. The pain was searing and reverberating into my soul. The hollowness and the echo of my past sins used to have a grip on me like a boulder chained around my neck. The heartaches were nights of swollen eyes from tears and bitten lips for regret. My hair was cut as a sign of the loss and it was not a light thing to bear.
No, I'm not a girl anymore. I don't make the same mistakes twice.
Fooling around may have been fun, but it was fun at the cost of my pain. I will never go back to being the weakling who crumbles and chokes at the thought of saying goodbye.
You have to be stronger than I. You have to be sharper in order to sharpen me. You have to be sturdier before I can lean on you. And you have to endure longer than the rest of them.
No I m not giving in. I will take you or leave you depending on your strength and will. And I will never back down or compromise.
Do not waste your time if you intend to fool around. You will only end up fooling yourself for falling for me.
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