Delight and Insecurities

I wanted to know, I say,
Pressing to you closer,
Do you still delight in me?

I wanted to know
If you still smile at my sillyness
When I trip and fall,
and get bruises on my knees.
When I stub my toe
and drop my things
Do you find me annoying or cute?

When I lean in
Ask you the same question
over and over again
Or say sorry, say thank you,
when I beam like a child
Do you find me immature or adorable?

When I do my best to disturb you
Pulling you away, holding your hand
Waving my fingers in front of you
Hug you and pull you closer
Take away the thing you're so focused into
Do you find me a distraction or an attraction?

When I smile at you
Does the shine in my eyes hypnotize you
Does it make you want to smile yourself
When I flash my teeth
And cup your face into my hands
Pinch your cheeks slightly
As I bite my lips in satisfaction
Do you find me weird or endearing?

When I dress in my shorts and sneakers
Drop off my heels and corporate clothes
When I press my nose into your neck
Act like a kid prancing about
Challenging you to a made-up game
Do you find me childish or awesome?

Do you find my cuddling sweet?
Am I only being inappropriate?

Do you find me pretty with my hair?
Am I only letting myself go?

Do you find my outfit breathtaking?
Am I only ordinary-looking?

Do you find my presence breathtaking?
Am I only a friend you got used to?

Does my nearness make you nervous?
Am I only just another person in the room?

I want to know.
Do you -- still?
Or am I only?