The Story of Us

There could have been
a million moments in just one night
But instead
We sizzled silently
exploded quietly
without giving off a spark.

Your seat was extremely distant from mine
As if reflecting our friendship
You used to sit beside me all the time.

I can't seem to ask you
all the questions I'm dying to know
How are you?
What did you accomplish recently?
What are your future plans?
Are you in love with someone?

But when we finally have an alone time in the car
Where six people left us
There was nothing but me
biting my nails and you
leaning forward,
as if your waist next to time
in such a small space
is a hundred lightyears' worth of separation
I can't seem to reach you.
I don't know if I want to.
But I want you to.
Yet no words were uttered.

For the longest time we sat beside each other singing
It was the best moments of silence
or noise?
in that night
We never talked
Instead
You held the mic
while we sang
a half-hearted, unplanned duet

You never left my side
and I was careful not to leave yours
Even if it meant holding my pee
Or not eating
I need to be next to you
And you
crawl your way to the food table
As if not wanting to let go of your seat too

And on the ride home
We sat next to each other
You asked me a stupid question
and gave I gave you no question back.

I bared my knees
So that you could touch them as you go
Like you always do.
You said goodbye
I said goodbye to you
I was waiting for your hands on my knees
You were waiting for my hand on your shoulder
We didn't touch at all.

I've known you for six years
Tonight we are strangers
Waiting for the time
That will never come.