Best-Kept Secret

Maybe this is the single thing that I need to get away from you.
We are living in perilous times
when everything is about to shift and move away
and never go back to the same things again.

This town has been sentimental for me.
It is a few minutes drive to the high school where I met you
The building, the classroom, the seat that are now destroyed

Where we took our first photos together
Hung out until late together
Slept over and beside each other
Got drunk for the first time together
Watched the movies together
Played for hours inside the computer shops together

Every corner of this town I ever known reminds me of you
that it seemed impossible leaving it
Leaving you...

If I go back to where I truly belong
where I truly grew up,
it would only bring me farther from you

I could see you every day on Facebook
but never get a glimpse of your smile
Lessening my chance to actually end up with you
What would happen to the dates we will have
Or how you would drive me home when the time comes
Even the dinners we would spend together
And the forever I once knew

I realized I haven't let go of those dreams...
They are still within me,
pushed beneath the surface
but with the hopes that someday you would unearth them
And we would cherish them together.

I have not the guts nor the principles
Or maybe the foolishness
to really tell you how I feel.

Maybe someday I would find a man whom I will love as much as I'll love you
Maybe outside this town we shared,
where we have become so close and now so far,
I would find someone who would truly stay
Even if I leave
While you left even after I decided to stay...

Could there really be life outside you?
Will I be able to actually move on, detach myself from your grip
and learn to begin again?

I have always loved the thought of fresh, new beginnings
But without you, oh, my schoolmate for five years now,
I do not know where to start!