Incoherent

I remember going home and diving into my bed,
thinking that I like him than you instead.
But the next day even with the minimal interaction
my mind stumbles upon thoughts of you without instruction.

How you fingered my wrists as you look for a watch
How you came at the right time when I thought you wouldn't show up.
How you are so awkward trying to get my sympathy
How as I jogged in silence you ran right past me.

And I don't know why you're always on my mind
when the idea of being with you I have speedily left behind
And I thought that I'm convinced that we won't be together
but in my heart I do hope that we both miss each other.

The date that I didn't bring up, I hope would come up.
The walks at home with high five in my memory came alive
The sensation of your fingers on my wrist for but a second
Suddenly I just want to talk and eat with you for long.

And I wish you also miss me and still act awkward
because with you all I can do is lay down my guard.
Of all the guys that I desired to ever be with me,
Of all the flings in my heart, it is in you that I see
A future as a husband, even as a father to my kids

And we would go home weary from working too much
But everything disappears with just a single touch
and a knowing glance, an assurance of love
A tired smile, a warm hand, the presence is enough.

I don't know where this is going in my heart is sick
But if you asked the questions, perhaps I would pick
to say yes and give us a chance to give us our all
For the first time again, I'm willing to take a fall.