Wish I Could See You

If there's one thing lacking... well...

There shouldn't be one thing...
Aniday service
High school friends
Family
Office
College DG
Closest girl.

They all wished me happy birthday
And you did, too. But...
I guess I'll just miss you
And I would be really sad if I don't see you before I leave.

It's strange for you to want to talk to me
And I want to talk to you too.
But you had to cancel.

A part of me still wishes you'd change your mind.
Wishes you'd be waiting outside the gates
Wishes you'd give that good bye high five
Wishes you'd stare into my eyes as if memorizing the face you won't see for a month
Wishes you'd just talk to me and pray for me and go on long walks with me.

And there's no time coz I'm leaving on Friday.
But I just wish I'd see you today
My birthday.
The way we accidentally saw each other on the mall during yours.
Our first lunch together remember?
The first time I ever considered we could be together.
The first time I felt my heart flutter
and the first time you insisted I tell you my ugly stories.

If there is a birthday wish right now,
it's to see you for the last time.

Coz I will really miss you so much.