Coward

You approached me, asking me to share my heart.
You tell me it's safe, that I can share anything.

I let down my guards but for a moment.
You made my heart feel warm.

Over and over again. By the way we talk
On the bus rides home, on the long walks,
On the text messaging, the long distance chats
The extra-effort to make me feel special

Then all of a sudden, you drop me like a hot potato
all in the name of not being ready.

Don't you think you should have known that sooner?

The conversation stopped, and you start avoiding me
You start approaching me with reluctance,
doing your best not to give yourself away.

You take all the necessary steps of self-preservation
Just so you could take your time convincing yourself
That you could handle something you already started

You are just like others, who would rather secure their place
And leave me hanging in return.

You told me I deserved someone man enough for me
and yet all you have been was a coward

And in the meantime I am left wondering what happened,
wondering what is going on in your mind,
pondering why all the drastic changes.

If you don't like me, then stay away for good.
If you like me, then stop pretending you don't.