Room full of Us

It's like I almost dreaded being there
afraid that an ocean of the past would engulf me
swallow and drown the present once again.
But with a brave and lonely heart, I proceeded.

There I saw them.
The chair which I sat in, and you were just beside me,
arms' length.
How we looked at each other, laughing at inside jokes
How we nudged each other, listened and know what the other was thinking

At the bed,
How you told me your disappointment
and I wanted so much to hug you
but I resisted.
I wished I did.

At the wall,
where we were drawn and written
and I wished my name was beside yours

How you are not with me now.
How you don't seem to bother
How you didn't seem to care

anymore.