How to lose a friend

Cupidity #38: "Telling him everything believing it would solve everything"

I agree, bad idea.

If I had tried to get my ex back, I would probably lose him again anyway.

We were not ready and never meant to be no matter how much I wanted him back.

And telling you everything won't do much too.

I have to stop telling myself it's the solution.

You would have known anyway, by the way I stuck to you and behind you.

You would have known by the care I have shown

By the way I'm hung over after two years.

You should have known I have given everything I could possibly do,

even without telling it.

It's just so sad that I lost a friend because I loved him

...

I started wishing bad things for him

started manipulating his acts in order to come out as what I wanted him to do

Used him to feed my fairy tale fantasies

losing him in the process.

I know it wasn't solely my fault.

He had to do something for me to hope.

But I exchanged him for my personal fantasies.

I gave in to the temptation of the devil

and he might have, too.

Now we're separated with silence.

I'm sorry my Angel.

I'm sorry.

You mean the world to me.

I never meant to wish you bad luck

I never meant to be sad when you succeed.

I never meant to drive you away just because I was jealous and hurt

I never meant to put my interest first.

I'm sorry.

If this can be repaired, I will never know.

But I want you to know that I'm putting our friendship first

and my pain last.

Please, forgive me