I'm Going to Miss You

My office life will never be the same again.
When you walked into that door, I had no idea
What effect your will have in my being.

When I saw your curly hair and gray polo shirt
Your reluctant smile and the initial conversation,
I never knew that I will be spending the next lunches
With the guy who will shatter my idea of an ideal.

The guy who walks into the office daily
Automatically making me tingly.
Who patiently waits until noon to talk to me.
Who would lend me a jacket when I'm cold
And would walk me to the same old roads.

The guy who will walk with me to the most distant food places
Who will wipe the ice cream off my fingers.
The guy who will drive down south to pick me up
And will drop off an umbrella to have lunch with me.

The guy who wanted my hands on his arms,
his hands on my hands, my head on his shoulders.
Who makes me laugh hilariously and sends me good music.
Who sings with me on the road home.

Who pats me on the head when I'm acting childish
Who grabs my neck when I'm being funny
Who pushes me to play American football, buy cleats,
and who speaks in a hilarious Lil Wayne accent.

The guy who has made so much impact in less than two months
Who challenged my idea of a smoking player
Who made me imagine making love
And wrapping my arms around him to kiss him.

Who would always pull me when cars pass by
And who never flinches when a truck almost hits him
Who curses at every car rushing past
Who would drink my beer when I don't finish it.

Who would smoke at a distance to avoid choking me
Who would squeeze my arm when he's annoyed
Who would pick girls up at my sight
And invite me to chill at night.

Who would download games for us to play
Who would bet ice cream and crepe treats

I know you're not the best boyfriend candidate.
I know you could be an asshole.
But the way you say thank you, the way you make me smile
The way you make me laugh and protected
The way you make me feel new
The way you walk into my life so suddenly
To change it.

I am so glad I met you
And the thought of losing you makes me tear up.

I don't want this to end.
I want to see you every day.
I want us to have time to fall
To explore, to go with the flow
wherever it is flowing.

I want to spend lunches with you
Walk home with you
Go to team practices with you
Sing in the car with you
Play True or False with you
Eat crepes with you
Sit next to you when you're driving
Watch you play games.

I don't want us to end as sudden
as we began.