Poles Apart

I am so immature around you,
Ignoring you at the first hours of the morning,
Waiting until lunch time to be alone with you
Hoping to talk to you through the afternoon
Walking home and catching my breath.

I feel so polarized around you
I hate you for looking at your phone when we talk
And the annoying disadvantage of not seeing your eyes
When we walk side by side.

I avoid you in the hopes that you will come nearer,
No matter how strange that sounds.
I try to put you in the friendzone to come closer
But hoping that someday you will jump out of it.

I push you to other women, tease you even
But deep inside I was hoping you'd say the words
You always say, that you're for me.

I try so hard not to think of you, yet respond immediately
When I know you are thinking of me.

I just wanted to be with you, but I know I can't
Because you're not the type who's there to stay.
You're not into commitment and monogamy.

Because you're a player, and forever you will be

And I just wanted to accept you for who you are
And I want you to accept me for the conservative I am.

And I want us to have that hope that maybe someday
We will both reach a compromise.