Out of the Blue

Earphones on, in a cold room, shivering at the thought of you.

Why did you have to come at just the right time?

I was used to my solitude when I eat lunch
I was fine with walking home alone.

Why did you suddenly have to appear out of the blue,
in the most unexpected way, surprise me with your presence?

And suddenly even the most mundane lunches became dates
where we share our penchant for music, movies, and sports

And the walks home are no longer silent, but are lively times
to breathe out and laugh at the jokes we never tell when
everyone is around.

Why am I suddenly keep on watching these teamwork movies,
and why am I striving to give you good films to watch?

Why do I start bothering with make up, clothes, and perfume?

Why do I overlook your smoking, your wandering eye tendencies,
the mere fact that this will go nowhere and will never last
and will probably be so awkward we refuse to speak to each other?

Why I am suddenly staying at my current job when early on
I was pondering on leaving every single minute?

Why do you have to astound me so much with the way you touch me,
the way we make each other laugh, and the how I wanted so much to be with you?

Why am I caving in at your daily attempts to make me feel something
I have denied or refused feeling from anyone who comes near?

Why am I falling for you now?